I'm Alive!

Hi Ladies!

Sorry about the lack of posts. We've been w/o internet for a while. It's a long story, but it should be back up soon. On the upside, I've gotten caught up with some reading (did you know that you can find words printed on paper?!?! Whoda thought it! ) Anyway, nothing really new with me, just same old. I've been mostly working lately.

I finally called RE's office to find out cost of a SA, only $80! We're planning to get it done in Aug, or maybe towards the end of July if DH doesn't end up doing the out of town work. I'm on the fence with the HSG. It's $1200 if we bill it through the ins, or $600 if we pay out of pocket. That really makes no sense to me. I'm really just ready to go on Clomid & just deal with it if I get multiples.

I was actually feeling ok last wk with the whole IF thing. At peace with it, I should say. Not impatient. Then... the "Announcement". Like something in life knows when we need an extra kick in the uterus! The "friend" I've told you about who pretended to be concerned about the PCOS thing, then turned into a witch as soon as she found out that she was pg (i've referred to her as N) , is execting their second. Ouch! Unplanned. Double ouch!! Telling people that it wasn't planned, but they're making the best of the situation. Would you just like to twist that knife a little while you've got it in my back!?! The only good side is that I heard it through a friend who has been through multiple losses & yrs of TTC, so at least she didn't think my reaction was out of line.

Anyway. I'm posting from mom's house & I'm actually over here to help her get a rummage sale set up. SO I'm gonna run. I'll get all caught up with all y'all soon. Love ya bunches! :)

Trigs---I'm an aunt

Travis' sister had her baby today. He's healthy & adorable. I tried my best to keep from crying most of the afternoon. Then decided to just let it out when I got home, so I watched M.y Si.st.er's Ke.ep.er. Yup, that'll make you cry if you ever need to! Did someone say the movie ending was diff from the book? How did the book end? And don't tell me to read it, I'd cry for a month!

If anyone was curious- I decided to not do anything as far as messaging ex's bro. Not a hi or anything. It's a possible can of worms that I just don't have the energy to get into. So, I did ignore a bunch of friend requests & I set my stuff to "friends only". I can't figure out how to put my anniversary in my status though, help?

Better...and NOT pg.

Thanks for all the well-wishes. I really do hate being sick, it's no fun at all! I did end up testing yest am, "not pregnant" in very clear digital words. So, if not food poisoning (which i still think it was) , is it possible to get this sick from hormonal changes? My left ovary hurt so bad on Sun that I thought it would explode. So, my last period was really a period, but if I'm O'ing this strong, maybe good news in a couple wks.

Other stuff- Can anyone help w/FB ettiquete? I joined so I can keep in touch w/SIL & see the pics of the kids. I've had a few friend requests & more than one where I'm scratching my head going "who the heck is this?" One where I recognize the name, but couldn't pick them out of a crowd. This may sound mean, but I'm not at all interested in keeping up with people who I barely knew. I'm an outgoing person, so there's probably more than one person who I was nice to in person, but would not consider more than a casual aquaintance.

So, do I just ignore it, or actual click "ignore"? Also, one of the reasons I've avoided FB for so long has turned out to be right- Most all of the people I grew up with already have multiple kids. Ouch! Even the ones who were younger than me. Double OUCH!!! Oh & IDK how much I've ever told you about my ex-fiancee, but looking through a lot of profiles & friends' lists; his family seems to have gotten all my friends in the breakup. How'd that happen? His little brother has responded to me on something I said on a mutual friend' page. So, maybe that's hope that a decade can make us all behave as adults? Or he doesn't realize who I am. It's rediculous really, I've broken up with people before & remained friends. When ex-fiancee broke up with me, he chose to spread all kinds of rumors around about me & my fam. I never got an explaination of why or what I'd done & it took me a LOOONG time to get over it. I don't want to rehash any of it, it's in the past, but I'd like to think that we could at least say hi or be in the same room w/o getting sick to me stomach. What do you think? Should I send a message to his brother & at least let him know that I have no intention of starting any HS drama? Or would that be starting drama? I've just always been such an open & upfront person, I don't do the drama. Really, any opinions would be appreciated.

Proof that Mondays SUCK!

It occurs to me that this should have a TMI WARNING!!!!

I ended up getting sick at work 4 times today!!! I wasn't feeling sick. I'd just be in the middle of a call & my mouth would start watering, then uncontrolable throw-up. (if i've never explained this- i DO NOT throw up! i will do everything in my power to keep it from happening). I am a true professional though. I'd place someone on hold, puke, finish the call, THEN get up to the ladies' room. So I was really ok with it, like I said, I felt fine. Until the last one. I couldn't control that one fast enough & ended up getting it on my jeans, desk, etc. By then I was fighting back tears of sheer embarassment. I went to the RR, cleaned up, & told a team lead that I was going home.

DH had dropped me off, so I called him to get me, clocked out, & hid in a conference rm until he got there. On the way home, I said "pull over" & got the grand experience of throwing up from a car. (fortunately did not get any in the car!)

He made me tea & chicken soup when we got home & I've managed to keep it down. I'm going on 6hrs puke-free now. I think it was food poinsoning, not entirely sure what from, but narrowed down to a couple culprits. I was asked 45 times today if I'm pg. No, I'm really not. I'm taking a test in the morning though to appease DH.

ON A MUCH HAPPIER NOTE---- Today was also my mom & dad's 35yr anniversary! Go mom & dad! :)

I'm sorry to not catch up on blogs right now, but I'm gonna head off to bed.

Two Lines!

Unfortunately, it's only a balloon. We went to our fav Mexican place tonight & the guy is there every Thurs. There was this family that had kids who were being just obnoxious. I'm usually good at not shooting the look at parents, but this was beyond out of control. He noticed & said "I'll bet you just can't wait to have kids now." I said that I was fine as is. So, he made this for me. It was funny actually, he noticed that DH was wearing a shirt from the home team town & turns out he's from the same town. Graduated fromt he same HS as DH, just 4 yrs earlier.
He also made this one for me. The funniest thing about that is that no one told him my fondness of ducks. It can actually be worn as a corsage. I loved it.

I've done pretty good working out this wk. I did 30 mins Mon, & 40 on both Tues & Wed. I'm impatient though, I think I should see results right away & have to keep reminding myself that it took time to gain it & it's been comfy on my waist for a while. So, it'll take time to get it back off. We have a challange at work & the criteria are 5/wk for a total of at least 150 mins. I skipped today because I woke up feeling like I'd been hit by a truck & ended up calling in. I think it may have been a mild migraine. So, I had a pretty easy day. I watched "Clo.udy Wi.th a Cha.nce of Me.atb.al.ls", it was cute. It didn't really follow the book, but it was good.

Well that's about it. Sorry, I have a boring life. I'll talk to y'all later.