The feats of strength (aka: moving SUCKS!)

We're almost out of the apt. We'll be staying w/my parents for a couple days. Once the sheetrock is up & we have a working bathroom, we can stay at the house. It's really beginning to look a lot different.

It turns out that the more sleep deprived I get, the faster corny jokes come to mind. Here's today's- If a teenager decides to go G.o.th & paints their room black, is it a "decoration of independance'? Hahahahaha! Not funny? Kill off a few brain cells with alcohol or no sleep, then read it again. (at work the other day, someone left a round of cheese under a register [last minute 'no buy' thing & it was forgotten] & it got all moldy. I came up with "this gouda is not so gouda")

Anyway, gonna shower so I can watch the ball drop & get some sleep. Still nothing further on little sis, but she offered to come over & help tomorrow, so I'll talk to her more then. I hope you're all having a SAFE new year! :)

Even bigger blow this wk.

Big TRIGS here-

I'm sorry. I'm sure you're all sick of hearing these. I seem to be attracting the bad this month. (time to retreat & stop answering the phone!) I texted my sis on Sun to let her know about some medical issues w/gramma (gma's fine, btw). So, she called me that afternoon & at the end of the conversation says "we probably need to talk some time this week." Those are words that, really, no one ever wants to hear. I didn't. I guessed what she wanted to talk about & was right. I flat out asked "are you pg?". She said yes. So, I was instantly choking back tears & a little hurt to get out a good for you.

Her reply back was "don't congratulate me yet, they think it's ectopic & I'll probably have to have a d&c by the end of the week." So, then I've got a trillion questions, why do they say that? What's going on? Long story shortened, they did an u/s last wk & saw a mass in her tube. She had another u/s done yesterday & they couldn't confirm anything in the uterus & couldn't confirm what the mass was. (i'm a little ticked that her dr only did external u/s though. they aren't accurate at 6-7wks!) She decided to wait another wk. Today she texted to tell me that she started bleeding full force. I advised that she still get an u/s next wk to check on the tube thing.

I've been a mess all week over this. You may recall that (due to her recent life choices) we have limited contact with her. So, I'm feeling upset that I can't be there for her. I'm mad that she got pg w/i 2 months of being married. I'm sad about her loosing the baby. I'm mad about... all of it! That she changed the relationship. It's been a lot to take all at once. Thank you so much to the 2 who've been texting me through this all week (you know who you are & i love you for the extra support). I'm just really stinking ready for this whole stupid yr to be over! We'll be moved by the end of next wk, so I may be scarce for a while. Love y'all though. I hope the rest of your yr goes smoothly! :)

Difficult situation

Probable TRIGS, but I need to get this out.

So, I have a friend that I met at my last job. I haven't kept in touch with anyone from there, but I do with her because I study the bible with her. Anyway, She told me back in Sept that she was done with the guy she was seeing. She'd had enough of his lies, called it quits, gave him the boot. I cheered her on because it bugs me when guys like that sneak around & cheat on the person they're with. Six wks later, she called me with "big news". You've probably guessed, she was calling to tell me she was 7wks pg. CRAP!!! So, I comforted her through that & assured her I'd be there for her. And I've been doing my best to keep that promise. To the extent that last Fri, I went over to her apt at 8pm after working all day to help her move out of there (financial issues), which took until midnight. That was after getting up early that same day to help her pack up. We ended up moving her stuff into the garage at our new place & we're giving her free storage (i really wouldn't charge anyone for that). She told me that she was going to stay with her sis for a couple days, then move in with someone from work who needs a room mate. I even took her fish home with me when she wasn't sure what she was going to do with them. (moot point now, they were all belly-up sat morning. dang guppies. i hate fish, they stink & they die, this is why i don't have fish. same with rodents. i like them, they just don't like living with me.)

So I texted her yesterday to see how she's doing. She's fine. And she's staying with the guy. She's not sure she's going to end up doing the room mate thing. I'm really trying not to react to this, I don't want to alienate her. But, REALLY?!?!? He has been going back & forth with "it's ok, i'm here for you" to "it's not my kid, not my problem". He already had a child with someone else before her & had moved onto (at least) another girl after her. And where was HE to help her pay for anything or to even help her move last wk?

I've been kinda ticky today & I finally narrowed part of it down to being a little ticked at her. I feel really bad about that too. She's going through a tough time & if I'm going to be a friend, I should be unconditionally supportive, mind my own business, & set a good example. Only, it's really hard to do all that when I see her make such a bad decision! And especially with the subject matter. Honestly, if there were a way to brain-wash her into open adoption, I may look into it. Ok, not really, but you know what I mean. She knows a little about my IF problems, but I'm pretty sure she doesn't know how much it takes from me to "be there" for her right now. I know I'll suck it up & get on with life; thanks for letting me vent though.

Sorry I've been MIA lately, we're splitting our time between packing & working on the house. We'll be out of the apt next Fri. Ahhhh! It's ok, it'll all work out & it'll be a huge stress off. I hate packing, but I hate that apt even more. And T has been great with helping with laundry & packing his stuff. I think there should be a stamp though that says "packed by the husband, goodness only knows what's in this box." He gets points for effort anyway. I hope you all are doing well & have a great w/e! :)

Here's a cool pic though. (they had nothing to do with the fishs' deaths, i think it was shock) I may have to find a way to keep fish alive, just for Skittles & Ping's entertainment. :)

"What's all this then? Did mom open a sushi bar?"

It's freezing here!

Literally. Which is an issue when you live in the South. I don't think we've been above 40* all wk! I know, quit sulking about it, it's Dec, but grrrr, I hate winter!

In other news. Ummm, Welll. Ok, I have no other news. I had to call out from work on Sun & Mon because I wrenched something in my neck & woke up Sun unable to use my left arm. Not fun. I saw the chiro on Mon & she fixed it, but I've still had a little numbness off & on.

I actually have Sat & Sun off this wk & we're planning to be working on the house. We got it insulated, the roof leak is totally fixed, now it's time to get bathrms in & some walls framed up! I will admit that I'm getting a little freaked out over the whole time-frame of having this done & getting moved out. So I'm hoping that this w/e will be very productive. I've got a few pics of "before", "during", "total freaking mess", & "what the heck were we thinking", I'm going to wait to post them though until I also have some "improvement" & "look, it's getting done" shots to go with it. Or maybe if I posted what we have now, you'd all head this way for an old-fashioned "house raising". ;) You may be wondering why it's worth all the work. I don't blame you. The reason is that we are going to pretty much be paying "rent" of the house taxes & ins. Let's just say I haven't paid this little since before I was married. And, ok, I'll leave you with one pic.

This is the back yard (all the way back to where the red roof is) . The whole lot is 2 1/2 acres! Isn't that awesome? I'm already planning a bbq for next summer. :) And one of my friends has already said that she's going to bring her boys over to let them run while we sip coffee. That would be totally fine w/me! So, bbq will be approx May, if any of y'all wanna come. ;)

A request... (trigs)

As many of you know, Christina's dad passed away just 7wks after her mom did. This is an incredible amount of loss in a short period of time. I know that our thoughts & prayers have been with Christina & her family during this time. It made me think of how quickly this could happen to any of us, so here's my request- If you can, give your parents an extra hug today. If they don't live close, give a phone call, text them, send an e-card, do a video chat. Do something to let them know how much you love them & thank them for all they've done for you.

My prayers are going out to so many in blogland tonight. This week has seen too much loss. If anyone has some good news, we could use it! My love to you all! (((HUGS)))

Paging Dr. G.oo.gle!

Before I get started, thanks for all the nice comments about the bear. :) It just takes a lot of practice & patience. It also may help that I find crochet to be very calming. I'll post a pic of my blanket when I hit the 1/2 way point.

Anyway, this is a TMI post, so I apologize in advance. I'll start of by saying that I am in pain. A LOT of pain. I told DH earlier that I don't mean to be so grouchy, but it's literally taking all I've got to not be screaming. AF showed up yest, giving me a 26 day C! Honestly! I wanted "shorter", but not that short. Yest I took 1500mg of ty.len.ol (i thought it was ib.upr.ofen, grabbed the wrong bottle) before going to work. It did nothing, so at lunch, I took a packet of ib.upr.ofen & a packet of extra strength pain reliever (mix of aspirin, tylnol, & caffiene). That finally dulled the pain a little. During the night, I woke up soaking through my tampon & with cramps so bad, they were making me sick to my stomach. Not fun.

So today, I took 800mg of ibu.prof.en (would've taken more, but T was having fits about the possibility of me burning an ulcer through my stomach. honestly! i don't take it on a reg basis & i took it w/food.) I may as well have taken tic-tacs for all the good it did. I was & still am in full cramp hell. This sucks.

I got to asking Dr Go.og.le about the symptoms of Endo. I've been told that endo & pcos can run together, so what's the possibility? Ok, just got back from a lot more reading. Check out this site, particulary question 73. From what I'm seeing, it's possible. I already know that I have pcos, but a lot of my symptoms go more with endo. At any rate, do you think it will be hard to get a Lap done? I'm beginning to think it's time for one. I try not to say too much about it because I don' want him to feel bad, the the pain w/sex is getting worse too.

The ins should be starting pretty soon. They said about 10wks of employment, so that's the 17th. Ish. I'm pretty sure I've got the 200hrs already, just waiting on the time requirement.

Oh & while I was in so much pain yest, I got the most helpful suggestion from someone at work. (we really do need a sarcasm font) She said "You should just have a baby. I used to get really painful cycles, but having 2 kids fixed it." I didn't kill her. She doesn't know & is otherwise pretty nice. But if only it were that easy.

Ok, I'll quit griping now. Have a good night!